Saturday, October 30, 2010


Deze heb ik gekregen van mijn liefste

In the endless seas of time
I see eyes shining like a blinding sun
staring into a gazing haze
I see new worlds opening
ensnaring me, entrapping you

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Rivers of time, taking countless of curves
into thousands of directions
Without nerves, I throw myself into you
ripping myself apart,
reconnecting in all my complexions
to open up my heart

Fighting the strings of fate
I reground my thoughts
reshape to recreate oneself
to my former self
given up the resistance
remolded by you
I see myself coming back to thee

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I reinstate myself next to you
refoccusing on the the collections
of my true emotions
Embracing my existence
like the universe, the earth
the earth, the oceans
arranging from emotion to thought
everything into its righteous place,

(for) Eternity
Where I is you and you is me
I remain,
the sun, the sea, the sky
in you

Reporting my reality

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I'm just reporting my reality,
although there are some things I cannot except
With bowed head I stagger to these things around,
knowing that sometimes one is not enough to make a change
One is not enough to make a lost nature to be found

I'm just reporting my reality,
which isn't so great after all
When I compare all the good to the bad,
I know that whoever created us in the end,
failed at being a good person or had just given up by being sad

I'm just reporting my reality,
with people who have the wrong power or behaviour
People who don't ever get any respect from me
I am only a number in this big, big world
where I can put a signature on a piece of paper that says "I don't agree"

I'm just reporting my reality,
when people say "isn't the human race great?"
I don't always know how to respond
But then I think of all the things I don't agree with
and just say "well, I'm not that fond"

Thursday, October 28, 2010

bad dreams

Lovely lovely lovely man
Sleeping in his bed
Dreaming dreams of which I think:
Which one could be bad?

Then, I would like to be an angel
Or invisible instead
To capture all those bad dreams
The dreams which make you sad.

But I am not an angel, nor invisible
I’m sorry, but that’s the way it is
the only thing that might could help
is to give you a hopeful kiss

Oh, then I’d like to be so close to you
To lay right next to you and say
“My sweet, my sweet, my sweet sweet love
Don’t let your dreams be grey,

The night will be awake for you
And so it will be everyday
Nights always care; they always do
So that bad dreams will fade away.”

But I’m not there now, and i regret
I want to be with you
Cause you can also say these same words
I have bad dreams too...


I had given up hope and felt my dreams sliding off the slope
I had forgotten about women of wisdom in my lonely kingdom
I had lost out of sight my double Debbie's eye with a cry and a sigh
But Susanna's whisper of warmth woke up my stroke after my choke
Her embrace made my suspicion amaze and evaporated the cold haze
Her lively look broke my sharp hook and streamed my blood like a brook
Her daily calls recalls the strength of moms double walls that never fall
Her immaculate emotion she shows me warmest devotion that doesn't endure sun lotion
Her sorrow will be soothed tomorrow yet by my rainbow reached by my homely cute sparrow
Indeed my throne of tenderness didn't appear to be flown and blown by my lonely twilight zone
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Help me,
I've failed once again,
I told myself;
I wouldn't do this,
I wouldn't do this,
I won't do this.

But I did.

I'll unfold the hidden pages,
That I wrote.
Behold the darkest, deepest stories,
That have never been told.

Put the right pieces to the puzzle
Disconnect me from my mind.
I'm sure you showed me somehow.
Was I really that blind?

Help me,
I've failed once again,
I told myself;
I wouldn't do this,
I wouldn't do this,
I won't do this.

But I did.

I'll tell you everything,
All you have to do is;
Walk this wicked labyrinth that I've made,
Just beware of all the secret traps,
which I constantly create.

I told myself;
I wouldn't do this,
I wouldn't do this,
I won't do this.

But I did.

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Dear Daddy

Cover of Dear Daddy
Dear daddy

I've heard about you
Angels took you away
When mumbling was all I could do
And mummy kept saying it was okay

The years passed and time has flown
But still not a day went by
Without me wishing for a dad I could call my own

I'll never know what it's like
Having my dad teaching me to ride my bike
I'll never know how it feels
Asking his permission walking these high heels
I'll never know the meaning of my dad's love
Yet I know he'll be watching me from above

My shooting star

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The end of always playing a game,
Dissapearing of pain
Just te be myself for the rest of my life
Found that one step to get out of the rain
My movie has finaly started with a romantic dive
A dive in my own pool of love with just the perfect feeling
For the first time it feels complete and true
One glimp of that shooting star, to wish…
I finaly found you

Monday, October 25, 2010


I don’t want to burn anymore
I don’t want to feel the warmth of my heart
I don’t want to feel anything
I want to freeze to death

Each day I am dying a little bit more
For you
My heart I don’t know it anymore
If I love or hate it know
Me and you
A future so unsure
I just can’t take it anymore

I don’t want to feel my heart beat
Not anymore
My body becomes stone cold
My heart burns forever more

I am dying all burning
Burning from within
Burning like hellfire
My unlimited desire


I always thought regret was fake
that what you've done was NOT a mistake
But an action of your deeper inner soul

Last night I did something so very wrong
and I'm acting so strong...
But I don't have a clue what to do
I just hope with all my heart we're not through...

I've hurted you...I know I did
I never thought I would feel that way...
but I regret it
I just wish I could take my words from last night away

I didn't now what I had
'till yesterday
I think I've lost you...and that really drives me mad...

Saturday, October 23, 2010

Will I lose you

Will I lose you

Will I lose you,
If I tell the truth?
That I love you,
so much.

You're just a good friend,
is what I said.
But that's not what I meant,
to say.

I do get butterflies,
in my belly.
When you eyes,
meet mine.

But tell me,
and tel me true,
what am i,baby,
to you?

Eternity of these days

If your walking down the street,
if your walking hand in hand,
than think of the sun shining on you,
you will understand.

Do you love the man you hold?
Do you like his style?
If the answer yes would be,
than put on your smile.

Look now at the sun above,
look him at his face.
You will now know what love will be..
The eternity of these days!

Friday, October 15, 2010

A hopeless feeling

If love hurts,
Then I love pain.

I get hurt time after time,
Day after day.
It doesn’t make sense,
But I won’t give up.

Some day I will love,
And not be disappointed.
For, there must be someone,
Looking for me.

And when I find her,
I will not be hurt, no more.
Because the love for each other,
Will take away the pain.


Your eyes open like a blue sunset,

Your skin’s soft fragrance I’ll never forget, 

Stay here with me, your heart next to mine,

We’ll stay here forever until the stars send a sign

The oceans will crumble the mountain shall fall

The earth’s face will shatter, but we will stand tall

Away from the struggle of a world ripped apart,

We’ll live on together, heart next to heart.

Thursday, October 14, 2010

The bird

Every evening,
Summer or winter,
A bird appears at my window,
Telling me his secrets,
And taking away some of mine.

He tells me not to forget,
To love the ones I still got,
To remember my dreams.

My words are in agreement with his,
I will do my best,
I will remember everything,
I will love, I will live.

Every evening,
A bird sits on my pillow,
Taking away some of my tears,
Taking away some of my dreams,
Just to never forget…

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Courage to escape

I wish I had the courage to escape
escape from school
escape from all of you
escape from my World
and be anywhere outside

I don’t know what’s holding me here
The fight to hold something that can’t be true
ended the friendship with my best friend
My parents keeping me to something I can’t hold on
by that I mean school
I don’t have any self-confidence
It making me tense
I wish I had the courage to escape