My life - question

~My life-question~

Please don’t answer before you’ve figured it out!!!

I’m reaching out
for someone to hurt me
screaming out loud
for someone to break me
whisper in silence
for someone to make me feel
I’m OK
even when I’m ana
even when I cut myself
even when I…
want to give up
everything I have

don’t
don’t tell me
don’t say to me
don’t think:
you do love me

you don’t
you just don’t love me
the way I am right now
so what’d tell me
you will finally do
when I’m totally
who you want me to be???